We’re told that to be successful you must get a college degree, then work a 9-5 job at a company that sees us as means to an end, not as the humans we are. Since when is it healthy to sit in a chair for 10/12 hours a day calling people, soliciting for money, staring at a screen? Its equivalent to being a couch potato. And we wonder why we have the outrageous obesity rates, high divorce rates, and unprecedented levels of unhappiness. We are slowly killing ourselves, slaving away for corporations. How many people do you know have become complacent with where they are? Who are miserable, yet they don’t do anything about it? It takes courage to break away from the status quo. To step out of your comfort zone. Now, I am speaking in a perfect world. I make these same mistakes myself. We have been conditioned, and we are not aware of it. Not all, but most. We are capable of great things. People who change the world are not smarter, they don’t know something we don’t; they take a chance, risk everything, because they have a vision for a greater future. My vison is to change the way we view and treat addiction. I have been grateful enough to go through a life changing treatment program, and it has got me thinking how different things could be if instead of treating substance abusers as criminals, we treat them as humans, as a public health concern, as suffering from a learned disorder, a debilitating one at that. I would like to help rehabilitate users and criminals, and teach them marketable skills so that they may go on and live a fulfilling, purpose driven life. I want to help those who cannot help themselves. If you believe in the bible, then you see that Jesus’ followers were all sinners; murderers, thieves, prostitutes, and he was the voice for the poor and sick. God Bless and Thank you for reading.
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I feel stuck. I quit my job last week. The 12 hour days of being at a desk, cold calling hundreds of people a week, the stress of trying to meet the unrealistically high sales quotas, it was all too much for me to handle. It was a great experience, and I got to see what I enjoyed, and disliked, about the job. I was having trouble managing everything that was expected of me. There is no one to blame besides myself. I jumped straight into a job after graduation. I chose to work over travelling to China. I haven’t felt like I have had time to unwind since I graduated. I was going full speed; finishing school, working, looking for work after graduation, trying to find a place to live. I felt like I was being forced to conform, and change who I am. I have a personality and a desire to help people less fortunate than I. How can I do that working in investments? It’s not possible.
I do a good job of masking what I feel, then I have a moment and it all comes boiling to the surface. I am weaning of suboxone and it has me feeling all sorts of weird. It is not as bad as full-fledged heroin withdrawals; more the anxiety, chills, restless legs, and I feel completely drained of energy. It is more becoming a hindrance, than it is helping. And with that I took the initiative to start the wean myself. The withdrawals are tolerable, and I am seeing colors more vividly, food and coffee tastes stronger, and I am noticing the fresh smells of nature. I feel trapped. Life goes on, and I am here still trying to figure just what I want out of life. Getting sober was the easy part. Learning how to live life is hard. Life is hard. I know I am an intelligent person with unlimited potential, but if I am not willing to put in the work, then I will continue to feel stuck. I have been re-evaluating my life ever since I quit my job, and I feel that I am being called to serve, and to serve in the most selfless way possible; the armed forces. My dream is to go to law school, then go into politics. But law school costs hundreds of thousands of dollars, and the Air Force will cover it! So, that is the path I am going to pursue. Only issue is that I have some prior charges related to underage drinking and a DUI. Nothing is on my record though, so I don’t know what will be found.. Just pray that they see how far I’ve come in the last 8 years. I graduated with a business degree, and am a completely different person. I feel completely transformed. I trust in God. Thank you for reading. What is your dream? What is holding you back from following it? Do not waste another moment in a position that is not fulfilling. If you feel called to do something great, then take a chance on that dream. For me, it is helping those lest fortunate then I. I have always wanted to go to the Air Force, so I quit my job last Friday and will be talking to a recruiter later today. From that, I want to study law and go to Law School at DU, then into politics and government. That is how I feel I can make the changes in the world I want to see. What about you? "When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us." - Alexander Graham Bell I lost sight of why I was working in finance. One, it was the best offer I got out of college, and I felt tremendous pressure to take it and begin a career. That was a mistake. I gave up the opportunity to travel through China with a classmate. Second, the financial services industry is not for me. The unrealistic demands and sales quotas to hit, the shallow nature of the job, and I felt like I was being forced to conform to being a wall street fellow. If anything, I feel that the industry is complicated on purpose, so Average Joes don't go into it. If everyone had the basic knowledge of finance that I got in a summer of working, then there would be no need for money managers. If anything, you can do it yourself. My honest thoughts: The finance industry is one giant Ponzi scheme. taking money from A to give it to B. The way the authors of the study materials talked about the '08 crash was disgraceful. They are so out of touch with the reality of most Americans. Not many people have the ability to lose their entire retirement and savings. Wall St. and bankers do not have the best interests of the rest of us at heart, they do it for the commissions. That brings me back to the decision to not continue working there. I wanted it to work so bad, but there more I worked and saw the inner workings of the industry, the less I trusted it. Greedy brokers and dealers are the cause of the '08 crash. The short term agenda, and need to make quick cash is not something I agree with. I have studied Buddhism, sustainability, and business, yet I go into finance? I am grateful I had the opportunity to experience the industry because it showed me what I liked and didn't like. So, I am going to go into the Air Force, and study for Law School. My dream. And nothing is going to stop me. The chains have been broken and I am free. God Bless. Thank you for reading |
AuthorI am a grateful recovering alcoholic and substance abuser. I graduated from CSU with a BA in business, and am now a law student pursuing a career in the legal field. I hope you enjoy my site! Feel free to introduce yourself and share a story with me that I will publish! Archives
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