Feeling inspired this morning. I had a great night’s rest and went for a run, and when I sat down to read the daily reflection for today, August 19, it felt like it was speaking directly to me. Let me put that in context. I have been working now, in a professional setting, ever since graduation in May. And it has been an adjustment. I had normalized behaviors, and was ignorant to how out of control my ego had gotten. Living a life of a drug addict, being on the streets, always fighting for that next hit, it became who I was. I had been feeling like I reached a plateau, and this past week I feel completely rejuvenated. I thank my boss for her kind words, and her willingness to show me how to reach the level of success I want. I work in financial services now, and it is everything I’ve dreamed of. And I am learning how to behave like a professional, not like a street kid. My boss, with love, had a heart to heart with me, and pointed out to me some areas I can work on. One of them being is that I don’t know everything! No shit, right? Well, apparently, I was giving off that impression. This brings me back to today’s daily reflection: “There is a wonderful feeling in not needing constant approval form colleagues at work or from the people I love. I wish I had known about this Step before, because I developed a frame of reference, I felt able to do the next right thing, knowing that the action fit the situation, and that it was the correct thing to do.” Referring to our inventory again. Putting out of our minds the wrongs others had done, we resolutely looked for our own mistakes. Where had we been selfish, dishonest, self-seeking, and frightened? Alcoholics Anonymous, pg.67 It is fair to say that I’ve been all of that and more in the little time I’ve been at my new position. I am afraid what people will think of me, I was self-seeking and selfish towards my co-worker, and I have been dishonest with myself about who I was. And I am grateful how my boss made me aware. She never talked down to me, but she talked to me like a human, with respect, and very kindly, but with no bullshit, told me how I can improve. What a wonderful feeling it is to feel respected, and not like I have something to prove. God Bless. Thank you for reading.
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